The thing about that house was that we built it before God broke our hearts for what breaks His.
Why is that significant?
We saw that we spent the majority of our money on our mortgage. To live in a new house, on a golf course, surrounded by manicured lawns and perfect neighbors was something we valued when we built that home. That is very much okay for anyone, but for us, we knew we were living in a way that put our priorities in *stuff* and *possessions*....that wasn't how we wanted our lives to be anymore.
“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." Matthew 6:19-21
That last sentence struck us to our core. "For where you treasure is, there your heart will be also."
Where was our treasure? In stuff.
Then where were our hearts? In stuff.
We want our lives to reflect where our hearts lie...in Christ and not in the things we own.
So...our house sold after the little ones came home, thank God! We moved into a small rental as we looked for our next home. God was so good here as well. We were connected with a wonderful woman who wanted to rent out her house and did so with out a time specific contract. We could stay as long as we wanted.
We prayed and prayed that God would guide us. Close doors where they need to be closed. Open the door that was right for our family.
When God called us to adoption, we jumped up and shouted YES!
Yes, we would follow His will for our family.
Yes, we would be obedient.
We also said YES to whatever His call would be for us....regardless of it being popular or "the norm".
With that in mind we prayed. Lord, if it is your will for us to add to our family, to be your hands and feet to a multitude of children, please provide a place that we can live without it being our financial focus.
Here's the deal though....we would need a good sized house and we really wanted to be in the country. Our kids need a place to run and we want to be able to cut down on our spending by raising our own food. Our list of wants/needs was high.
So many doors were closed....sooooo many. Sometimes I was disappointed. I really just wanted to be in a home, our own home. We are now at just over a year later, still in our rental but God revealed His perfect plan.